I tried to divert my mind with deep breathing, saying a silent prayer of gratitude that my family was fine but it suddenly felt selfish. There are so many people out there who have lost their loved ones to this pandemic.I tried to divert my mind with deep breathing, saying a silent prayer of gratitude that my family was fine but it suddenly felt selfish. There are so many people out there who have lost their loved ones to this pandemic. I hear about them daily but never have I felt so sad before.