Once upon a time I loved to smile But today I have forgotten how to My soul is anxious and cries day and night And I know of no means by which I can pacify it What I had seen in the last month and a half Has broken my heart into a million parts The heart-wrenching cries on phone calls for help To arrange for oxygen or for a hospital bed The helplessness that kept us awake whole nights Praying was the last resort we realised But it didn’t help either Perhaps God helps those who help themselves