This is a blog series in memory of our fur baby, Caesar who left us alone in this troubled world on March 25, 2018. I have not talked about Caesar with anyone except family because I still don’t feel ready. Somewhere in my heart, I have this huge guilt that his death is my fault. Being a mother I feel he was my responsibility and I should have saved him no matter what. How could a mother let her child die in her hands? This question still haunts me.